Starting Over - with hope

Yes...I know...another weight loss blog, but when you weigh well over 350 LBS...and you are a fifty nine YO with serious health problems...folks...you gotta do something !
I won't bore anyone with the usual stories of yo yo dieting...having my children late in life and other things.
I want to work this out, but get ready folks...this WILL NOT be a blog where I sit here and blame myself entirely nor will I do the "poor me" trip. I am an experiment in progress and will not let those so called experts blame this all on emotional problems...sorry that is pure crap !!!!!
So...if you want my philosophy...stay with me on this journey.

Last week I joined WW again for the umpteenth time. Yes, I know all the negative stories...the expense, but I did loose 70 Lbs back in the early 90's and would probably have continued to loose most of my extra weight on their program, except for a small problem...I got pregnant !!
So...needless to say, as I was thirty nine at the time, my body said "Whoopee ! Time to eat !" LOL and it has been downhill ever since, with many attempts in the process.

Biochemical chaos is showing up more and more as being the true problem with obese people.The research is proving this. Emotional eating, at least for me, has been a difference of only about 10-20 lbs. in the overall picture.

I might have considered gastric bypass (the most extreme kind) except for my problems with my body forming blood clots. I am also not wild about the high risks and the failure rate. Just not worth it in my mind. For all of you who have achieved sucess with this...my congrats go out to you, but why should we have to go through this !?!

I can't take the current weight loss drugs due to digestive problems, so...this directs me to one thing...doing it by myself.

Now...I know even if I am successful at getting rid of the excess lbs., the fat cells that have been created in my obese state, will not disappear (read the research)... ever calling me to fill them up again. So...while it is possible to become smaller, my body will fight this and I will never be able to change the desire to be full. This is the beast within.

I need to rest now...I will be sorry I decided to start this at midnight...in the morning I will struggle, but it had to be done.

I will be able to post each day...as this is ever on my mind......

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